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Mariah Carey opens up about secret battle with Bipolar II disorder

Singer Mariah Carey opened up about her longtime struggle with bipolar disorder and revealed that she was first diagnosed in 2001, but has since found a good balance.


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Mariah Carey has opened up about her struggle with bipolar disorder. in a new interview. 

 

"I was so terrified of losing everything I convinced myself the only way to deal with this was to not deal with this," she told People. Carey also added that she was first diagnosed in 2001 after being hospitalized for a mental and physical breakdown.

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Carey recently sought professional treatment.

 

"Until recently I lived in denial and isolation and in constant fear someone would expose me," she told the publication. "It was too heavy a burden to carry and I simply couldn't do that anymore. I sought and received treatment, I put positive people around me and I got back to doing what I lovewriting songs and making music."

 

She admitted to currently being in therapy and taking medication, as the disorder is known for giving people periods of depression and hypomania, though Carey says her medication isn't making her too tired. The mom-of-two has "found a good balance" and is focusing on her music and her family.

I'm just in a really good place right now, where I'm comfortable discussing my struggles with bipolar II disorder. I'm hopeful we can get to a place where the stigma is lifted from people going through anything alone. It can be incredibly isolating. It does not have to define you and I refuse to allow it to define me or control me.

Carey, who initially thought she was just having sleeping problems, later found out it was part of her bipolar II disorder.

 

"It wasn't normal insomnia and I wasn't lying awake counting sheep. I was working and working and working," she said. "I thought working and promoting for days in a row without sleeping was just part of my life. I was irritable and in constant fear of letting people down. It turns out that I was experiencing a form of mania."

 

"Eventually I would just hit a wall," Carey continued to explain. "I guess my depressive episodes were characterized by having very low energy. I would feel so lonely and sad even guilty that I wasn't doing what I needed to be doing for my career."

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